The only constant is change

The only constant is change

Every time I think I have my life sorted out, life throws a big messy curve ball. In 2015 I fell in love with a man, who does not love me, but still I held on. Why? Because I am naïve enough to believe that people can change and become the best version of themselves I...
I am sorry I was not enough

I am sorry I was not enough

There is just so much you can do. You can give it all to your friends, children, and to the people you love And it is not enough. It is not enough, to bring you the happiness you deserve, Despite all you have given, sacrificed and bled for, It is not enough, when all...
I wish my father knew …

I wish my father knew …

Death is devastating. It obliterates the very foundation of your life and leaves you rudderless and adrift. But when death comes knocking, it also has the power to heal. I don’t think my dad realised just how much he was loved, admired and respected until last year....

Shattered trust

I have had my heart broken by two people during the last month. And all because of lies and gossiping. That kind of pain that strikes you when you discover the betrayal and lies is crushing. It’s so bad you wonder why it does not kill you. It leaves you...

Julie & Julia

I love watching movies. Almost as much as reading books. Movies allow me to escape and lose myself in a world that does not resemble my own. My favourites are those that are mythical and magical. Those that free me from the stress of daily life and allow me to...

The circle contracts

This year has been a year of loss. My circle of friends and family has shrunk significantly. Not through death though. Some of the shrinkage has been a deliberate choice. Some have been coming for a long time. And for some, there is no explanation. Losing people in...

Frankly my dear …

It takes us a lifetime to get over ourselves. All my life I have been the ’emotional’ one. The person that wears their heart on their sleeve. The first one to extend the olive branch. The first one to say ‘I love you’.  I am often dismissed and...

Amputation

The cutting off of a limb seems extreme even in the worst situations. If you leave it too long the gangrene spreads like bitterness and anger throughout your entire body. The poison spreads and you end up hating the world and the people in it. The pain is excruciating...

A real conversation

We miss out so much in this digital fast paced life of ours. We are all so busy connecting on the virtual plane that we miss out on the messy but real stuff of life. We seldom have those real conversations that expose you for the human being you are. No, we are all...